Ramadan Real Talk- The first week of Ramadan was incredible; I didn’t feel hungry nor thirsty, I was reading a chapter of the Quran a day, I wasn’t rushing through my prayers, I had energy to fulfil my children’s needs, and I was able to keep up with the chores and errands with ease. Needless to say, I was on a spiritual high. “Finally!!!” I thought to myself. For the past four years, I had struggled with Ramadan and with my ibadaah during the holy month, but things were f-i-n-a-l-l-y looking up! And then the second week came and BAM, everything changed. I spoke too soon.
During the second week of Ramadan, I started to struggle, but I was still able to keep up for the most part. And then the third week came and I was defeated! Yesterday, in particular, I felt like I was barely able to keep up with life plus Ramadan. I had low blood pressure and I hardly could stand up. Making wudu seemed like a huge task, as did cooking and feeding the kids. I was laying down for most of the day. Instead of reading a chapter of the Quran, I read a few pages and called it a day. Prayer was the biggest struggle as I felt nauseated and weak every time I was in motion.
As I was starting to feel sorry for myself, a thought popped into my mind- the thought that maybe Ramadan is not supposed to be “easy,” for the best of things in life come with a fight. If Ramadan was easy and came with no struggles, then where would the test of our imaan come from? Isn’t this the whole point of Ramadan, to see how we follow the commands of Allah, even in the toughest conditions?
Remember, there is reward of pushing through in Ramadan despite our struggles, there are rewards of carrying on living even though we feel weak physically and sometimes spiritually.
There is beauty in our struggles. Our struggles will allow us to come closer to Allah and elevate our status: Muslim (2572) narrated that ‘A’isha (may Allah be pleased with her) said: The Messenger of Allah (peace and blessings be upon him) said: “The believer is not harmed by a thorn or anything greater, but Allah will raise him in status thereby, or erase a sin thereby.”
So, if you are struggling this Ramadan, remember that the greater the test, the greater the reward: It was narrated from Anas ibn Malik (may Allah be pleased with him) that the Prophet (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) said: “Great reward comes with great trials. When Allah loves a people, He tests them, and whoever accepts it attains His pleasure…”
I pray you find comfort in these words and carry this message forward as we enter the last part of Ramadan.